I have trouble sleeping, for various reasons, one of them is that I’m in my twenties but more on that soon. When I have trouble sleeping, like I am guessing the majority of people who have had the misfortune of owning a smart phone, I end up trailing the internet for useless things to read. Particuarly on Buzzfeed.
Most of the posts on there are things like ’20 Racoons who look like they were from that tv series from the 90’s’ or ‘101 goldfish having a worse day than you’ However, this post here, which was actually sent to me by a friend, is pure TRUTH.
Scary kind of truth. The kind of truth the internet was probably originally built for.
That’s right, 10 signs you are having a Quarter Life Crisis, I was not prepared for you.
I am in my early twenties, as are the majority of my friends (go figure). However, a friend in her 30’s said she couldn’t remember what it was like to be my age, my reply?
It is worse than being a teenager.
Every week a new friend falls into their quarter life crisis. Every week I get a phone call from a different friend, who essentially, woke up that morning, looked at the day ahead and went ‘What the HELL is this???’
I think the difficulty can be pinned down to the overwhelming feeling that we should have SOMETHING worked out by now. But not a single one of us does, and not only that but everytime we think we are about to grasp an idea of what we want to do with our life, who we want to grow up to be, it presents more questions than answers.
How are you going to go about that?
Shouldn’t you have done a different degree for that?
You’ve never mentioned this before?
What will your parents think?
What about that flat you want?
Why are you even going traveling?
I’ve been told more than once by a Friend of mine, lets call him Y, that I am very lucky because I know what I want to do with my life. Yeah, I said, I am, but knowing what I want to do with my life, has presented a whole range of other unknowns. Will I ever be able to afford a flat of my own? Wouldn’t it be nice to only work 9-5? Is it easier to want the simple things in life, job, car, holiday once a year?
Where as Y is trapped between knowing that he loves his work life balance, having a nice flat and all that, but also doesn’t really like his job, and finds it difficult to imagine a job that he would like. And what if, he finds a job that he likes, but it starts eating into his leisure time? For Y, there is a clean definition between work and life, for me obviously, there isn’t. The reason I know what I want to do with my life is because I can’t imagine my life without it.
But when I meet with friends that have a more ‘normal’ route mapped out? I am VERY jealous, I don’t have the same milestones as they do, and so when I compare myself to them (which we all do) I ultimately feel like I am failing.
So maybe I do have something figured out, what I want to do, and maybe that is half the battle but the other half of the battle, is how do I get there? And how do I tie up all those other loose strings along the way?
Today is Friday, 7 days ago it was Friday, and in 7 days time, it will be Friday again. Does time really go that quickly? it never seemed to do at uni? And how come my to do list and my list of seemingly life challenging questions grows twice as fast?
I don’t know the answers to any of the above questions. Being in my twenties is keeping me up at night.
Luckily though buzzfeed is here to distract me from my panic attacks.
Ooooo look, 15 ways to peel a banana, that are bound to change my life.