Morning everyone how are you? I don’t know about you but I found it really difficult to get up this morning. Maybe because of the gloomy fog which has returned once again to Blackburn or maybe because after 4 days off my body was just thinking “I could get used to this” but whatever the reason it is annoying.
Now I am sat here already feeling slightly panicked. I don’t have to start work till late today but I told myself I’d go in early anyway – an unnecessary pressure I had put on myself. I can feel that Knott in my stomach that is trying to tell me “it’s Monday morning and you’re already behind” – something which just isn’t true.
I can put a lot of pressure on Mondays. If I’ve had a bad week, it’s not that I wait till Monday to shake it off, but I do feel comforted by that “new start” feeling. Even if I’ve had a good week Monday rolls around and I want to use that momentum to keep going, to do better.
Hopefully if you read these posts you’ll know that this isn’t as stressful a habit as that makes it sound. I use Mondays to check in and keep positive. If I didn’t do this I’d probably very quickly loose sight of what is really important and I’d end up a much bigger ball of stress and worry. All of that is true of this Monday too, except this week I want to tell myself and you, that no one late start is defining of a week or a life.
So I am a little later into the office this morning than I had originally planned, I’m still working late, and if I take some time now to breathe and keep myself feeling refreshed after my days off then the work I do this afternoon will be better than any I try to rush and complete now.
I guess what I am trying to say is, as always, don’t give up. I can be my own worst enemy, and the smallest thing can make me feel defeated. That knot in my belly can make me physically sick, but only if I let it.
Monday isn’t over yet, and even if it is by the time you’re reading this, don’t credit one day with too much power, instead credit yourself.
Live life & let the late starts go every now and then x